Grosse Pointe Blank..

Today was Matthew's TEN year reunion. Go Dexter Bearcats! Matthew and I used to watch Grosse Pointe Blank just about every night as we went to bed in Paragould. (NO CABLE) Well anyway, I always thought that Martin and Debbie were so old and thought we would never be as old as them at our TEN year reunion. Martin didn't really have his life together and going home was so agonizing for him, it took a hit job just to get him there. It makes me laugh how we were so content just a year ago with our lives. God had a different plan.... Now that this life marking event is occurring I realize that we are a little more like Martin then I thought. We are getting older and my muscles and bones remind me of this on a regular basis. I look around at all of our friends and their GROWING families and feel a little left out. You know what, God has a plan for us and that should be enough. I know that it must be spectacular! I was so trusting when our life was changing so much just eight months ago, but as time goes by it is hard to keep my focus and faith where it needs to be. I think that I was having to be the strong one in the beginning, I had to use my past military moving experiences to convince Matthew that everything would be ok and that people do this all of the time. Now Matthew is having to be the positive one because I have almost had my fill. Why is it that we "humans" have so much trouble just trusting in the Lord? I was reading Conquering Your Giants by Nancy Eichman right after we moved here. In one of her passages about Sarah and Abraham she says, about Sarah: Instead, she put their survival in the hands of God. In his hands she was safe. Her future was one big question mark, but although her eyes were covered, God could see everything and He was the One who was leading her. Here I go facing another week with my eyes covered but I know who is leading me.