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Grosse Pointe Blank..

Today was Matthew's TEN year reunion. Go Dexter Bearcats! Matthew and I used to watch Grosse Pointe Blank just about every night as we went to bed in Paragould. (NO CABLE) Well anyway, I always thought that Martin and Debbie were so old and thought we would never be as old as them at our TEN year reunion. Martin didn't really have his life together and going home was so agonizing for him, it took a hit job just to get him there. It makes me laugh how we were so content just a year ago with our lives. God had a different plan.... Now that this life marking event is occurring I realize that we are a little more like Martin then I thought. We are getting older and my muscles and bones remind me of this on a regular basis. I look around at all of our friends and their GROWING families and feel a little left out. You know what, God has a plan for us and that should be enough. I know that it must be spectacular! I was so trusting when our life was changing so much just eight months ago, but as time goes by it is hard to keep my focus and faith where it needs to be. I think that I was having to be the strong one in the beginning, I had to use my past military moving experiences to convince Matthew that everything would be ok and that people do this all of the time. Now Matthew is having to be the positive one because I have almost had my fill. Why is it that we "humans" have so much trouble just trusting in the Lord? I was reading Conquering Your Giants by Nancy Eichman right after we moved here. In one of her passages about Sarah and Abraham she says, about Sarah: Instead, she put their survival in the hands of God. In his hands she was safe. Her future was one big question mark, but although her eyes were covered, God could see everything and He was the One who was leading her. Here I go facing another week with my eyes covered but I know who is leading me.


Anonymous said...

I'm sure it's a little bitter sweet when you see your friends and sister having babies. But you are so right when you say God has a special plan for you and Matthew. He knows that you guys have to go through this part of your life without any attachements. How hard would this move have been if you guys already had a child! When you guys decide to start a family you and Matthew are going to be the best parents!! Just think, those of us who have kids envy you because you're not tied down and you get to SLEEP IN!! Something I only get to do when the grandparents babysit! :) Be patient, trust in God's plan, and know that I love you and miss you! Love, Shauri